So it is official. We are residence of Arkansas. We have a house, we have Arkansas plates on our cars and we even have Arkansas driving license. So why is it that we've been in Arkansas for 2 years officially this March and I still can't accept the fact that this is now home?
Last week I through myself a little pity party. It was no fun, no one else showed up. I was so homesick. I miss my friends and family terribly. I tossed the idea of Mike and I working on a long distance relationship but I know I would be so sad without him (and I know I can't go one day without my BFF) I swear everything reminded me of home. Someone was telling me that she had her grandkids for the weekend and it made me so sad thinking that I'll never be able to just drop Hannah off at my parents for the weekend or that I can't meet my mom at Fo Grand's for lunch and that was missing the Saturday morning gossip sessions at the beauty shop with my mom. Oohh woe is me...
So there I was in my pj's watching TV and I see all terrible stuff that is happening in Japan. It just broke my heart. All these people loss their lives, and the ones who did survive we left with nothing. I couldn't believe I had the nerve to be complaining about missing my gossip session at the beauty shop.
I got up right then and went to Mike and just thanked him for being such a hard worker and for giving me and Hannah such a good life.
The entire time I was feeling sorry for myself, I kept asking God. "What are you trying to teach me?" I just didn't understand? Sometimes it takes me awhile... Then I overheard someone talking about "just being content" DING DING DING we have a winner.... God is trying to teach me to be content. NO we are not in St. Louis, and NO I will not be able to drop by the parentals for a visit BUT YES, I have a great husband, YES I have a roof over my head and food to eat. YES I have my health, and YES I have a (oh so cute) HEALTHY baby girl.
It's amazing how God can lead you to the right passage at the right time. I started reading in Philippians and this passage really stood out to me:
I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:10-13